I had forgotten just how really cutting all that was. There was a lot going on at the time, not all of it related to the battles with RDM and his shills, Milty and his army of clones, and seeing something I've been attached to, one way or another for, at that point, nearly 25 years, being bastardized by people who couldn't have cared less about the material.
There was my divorce, and all the "joys" that brought, and struggling to make sense of it, and trying to maintain a relationship with my 2 little girls.
The economy went south, and took along with it, much of the work in my field for a time.
It was like a cascade of stinging defeats, one after another.
A few people have asked where I went. The easy answer is hibernation. Of course, the real answer is a tad more complicated. I threw myself into my work, and went back into Theatre. Playing Bob Cratchit in A Christmas Carol every year for the last 5 was a great way for me to break out of feeling down. I spent most of my childhood in that Theatre, and being back there was like going home. Hehehe AND I went from having 2 kids to 6 every year.
A girl that has played my daughter for all 5 is going off to college soon, I feel like her surrogate Father.
Ask me sometime about "Tubby Tim" (hehehehe My Shoulder will NEVER be the same)
All that helped me to squelch it down, and helped me get my footing back.
Since reading JSC1's essay, the last couple of days have been awash with memories about it all. Good, Bad, and Otherwise.
I don't know about the rest of you, but I was surprised at just how much anger was still there.
But strangely to, I'm reminded by it that what brought me back to it was a rumour. God knows as a fan community we've gone through more than our share of baseless rumours, but for whatever reason, this one felt different. I guess for me, it was Hope. Something that, at least in regards to BSG, felt like it had been rendered in very short supply
But whatever the outcome to that rumour, I'm not ready to give up just yet! I'm not ready to knuckle under to the Ted/Milty GINO types. I'm not ready to settle for the last chapter for BSG to be written by the likes of Ron Moore!
I'm happy to see people getting invigorated again. I'm hearing about more and more TOS related projects going on, and I'm involved in something myself as well.
Someone I respect told me that we can't undue what happened. And he is right. All we can do is move forward, and if we get a good bit of luck, the least we can expect is a stronger fan community for the TOS, and if we're really lucky, well, you get the idea....
My Birth Father has said "You can't get the sh*t back in the horse, but it doesn't mean you can't hop on and ride the damned thing again after it's done"
Well Damn it, I'm ready for another ride!